We may not show that were in a relationship, but as long as it keeps me and you together and you out of trouble.:) You make me happy, I love how your childish, you dont take relationships too seriouse. Your face is so beautiful, your humorus in many ways. You play around a lot, but you not active. Hah, but I love you no matter what. You’ve made me mad buts thats the past, weve know each other for such a
While. Its one you the things I love about you. You make me feel like the happiest person in the world. :)…
Sincerly, JedEyeMasterBullShit;)

Life is filled with lessons even though you dont need it or hate it. Well, it happens for the future. Everything happens for I don’t know.. A reason? But you have to learn to just look forward, sheeit. If you keep on looking back, just wait and she what happens to you. Its like your destroying who you are when you just look in the past. Not in the future. Just think… Its what happened to me. I keep on thinking about my past and just thought about what ive gone through. I wanna forget it now. I just wanna get over it. Its fucking nothing now. Sympathy aint gonna do the job. Its just destroying you when you have sympathy for your self and others giving it to you. Well, who ever all reads this. Just think, you could believe this or not. Its your choice, not mine.

I miss you sooooo much. I may not know what love is and all that stuff. But I miss you soo much. Next time I see you alone, im going to hug you to death, kiss you so much, and I honestly don’t know what else. I think of you every day. Along with my mom and I guess my dad.. But anyways, I cried for you twice past the six days I havent seen you since youve whaling. I dont know what that means but I miss you! Sigh, just please come to school tomorrow.. I cant stand not to see you for another day. Sigh, gosh im such a retard. And a drama queen, but guess what, I could careless then a dip. I love who I am but fixing myself up to become a better person. But not only for the best and my friends. But most of all, god. Alright. Gn everyone. God bless you all:) I love n miss you *****… ;)

Mom, I’m happy that your happy. But at times it upsets me when your upset. I don’t want to be that was anymore because of your boyfriend/my uncle. I hate to say this but, I’m so effing tired of everything. I’m like so fed up with everything. Mom, I miss you soooo much, I think of you all the time. I wish I could see you for once. Not with a black eye. Not smelling like shit. And most certainly not drunk like the last time I saw you before my fucking birthday. You k now what. I dont care how I see you the next time. I just wanna be with you. Last time I saw you… was OVER a half a year ago. I love n miss you monica vasquez a.k.a mommy.

Mom, im not your little doll anymore. I realized this just today. But like just for once, could you get me normal clothing like everyone else so I could actualy feel like a kid. Not an adult and so mature. Whatever. But I wanna fit in with my friends. I wanna dress simular to them so I dont feel left out and… Different. Crew, I may seem like a person that doesnt feel no pain when you guys do your confessions like all the time when I used to hang out with you guys all the time. But it actually does hurt. Yes I do know ive made some really nad choices this year but its not like I meant to do it on perpose. And makes are bound to happen. And im sorry. And you know what. Ive changed a lot now. And this is one of the reasons I stopped hanging out with you guys so much. I. Was so sick and tired of all of you guys judging me and doing your confessions all the time. It was like all at once. Wich hurt a lot I cried my self to sleep everyday when the confession day started. I hated that day soo much. I felt like screaming. I mean like, all of you agreed on everything one person said and all started talking about it at once. And I know the confessions were to just to tell me so I wont make a fool out of my self but after a little while some of you started just doing it voluntary like out of no where. And after I stopped hanging out with you guys. Some if you liked talking to katrina about me. Like im jot fixing anything. Well if you thought that Arvi, why didnt you just ask or anything. But, everything is alright and dandy now. Iguess. But Im getting help by god. Ive learned very many things from him and my sins. And as I learned from them. I knew I could have done better then that and just think for a moment. Ex boyfriend. You are just confusing,lovely,very cherishing, and I cant explain the rest but, I dont get you sometimes but I still like you a lot. You helped me to like someone else other then james snow. You could be sensitive sometimes and it makes me laugh but a little mad. Haha and if you only like me kinda, and love me a lot. I cant get you. But i know we cant be together and I have to respect that since your dont like you dating. But, I guess oh well. It sucks but its life and were only teens. Goodnight.
Sincerly,
JedEyeMasterBullShit

Im finaly hanging out with them.:-]